Nice guy, horrible disease.

Holding him back from living

I was told tonight that Im his only friend,

not only did i not realise this,

im helping him, forget.

But I never understood,

until someone told me straight up.

I may complain about life

but his troubles are far greater,

his disease, his pain, his stress.

Why the fuck did I never see this

an hour hangout, made his disease go away.

For one fucking hour, I made him feel normal.

Me,  hanging out with me, Im definately no one,

but  I made his pain leave for just that small time.

I feel ashamed, that I take advantage of life.

How Naive and fucking ignorant I am,

to ditch out and reschedule, fucking reschedule.

His only contact with anyone from the outside world.

I am his only relief, but now I feel more pain

Now i realise that I make someone feel better

that I mean that much to someone, I feel terrible.

Im sad that he may never have any other friends,

girl friend, a wife kids, im his only fucken friend.

Everyone else has just left abandoned him.

A painter, hes created a legacy

they say art gets more valuable after the artist dies

I dont want his art to be more valuable,

Put up with so much pain in his life

I just never realised the extent of that disease,\

whats holding him back in having a normal life.

No matter what situation your in

their is always an escape, and I am his.

thats why that phone call fucked me up

cause that reality check, made me realise.

Sinking slowly into the back of my throat, every moment I will not waste.

My heart skips the further back she slides, bringing herself closer to me

Infiltrating my senses, my eyes close slightly, only one thing I can see

I enjoy each moment I’m with her, just hoping it will never end

Hoping our time together will last, becoming more than just a friend.

She tastes and smells like strawberries, oranges, peppermint and more.

My love for her will never weaken,  right down to my very core.

I don’t know what to say, when it comes to how I really feel,

there are so many different choices, but only a few are real.

As time passes, I know she might love someone else some other way

But she’s always in the back of my mind, especially on a gloomy cold day.

Then I will have her again in my arms again forever with me.

I always will love my delicious and beautiful, hot cup of tea.

with black and white, an equal share.

Amongst the raw bamboo trees,

its calm, a mind finally at ease.

Light and dark working together in one,

its life, continually forced on the run

this warm soft hearted beast.

surviving in the jungle far east.

His eyes tired and his legs weak.

lying with his nose up as high as he could reach.

Hunted, taken day after day.

Kept dead or alive for some small pay.

But not him, he refuses to go

live a life behind bars, his head hung low.

He wants to live on clouds with rainbows and be sane

and feel the sun, wind and the warmth of rain.

his eyes tear up as he lookes up above,

his life is short but all he wants is love.

dedicated to Charmer! <3

what did you think of the movie?

2:06pmJake

i though it was cool like the visual effects and shit

what you think?

2:06pm******

i liked the colors

2:06pmJake

wer you high?

2:06pm******

no lol

2:08pmJake

oh haha i saw the movie before but really high and I didnt remember the movie but this time i was a little bit baked and thought it was awesome

2:10pm*******

lol i called the ending like 30mins in lol

2:14pmJAke

i kno I saw that white old bitch die and I was like thats totally going to happen to him

and did youg get turned on in the alien love scene?

2:15pm********

i called it way before any of that happened lol

2:15pmJAke

and did youg get turnned on in the alien love

i was like thats fucken hot

2:20pm*******

lol Not really

2:23pm*******

Jesus!

up and down the frets of satans instrument.

when blood and rage comes into the throat

spill it out on a page,  the one kind, anti-dote.

eyes turn black and don’t need to see,

your soul is bought, but your mind is free.

This is what the guy at the gas station told me was itching him. 

Other than feeling a little disgusted I told him that maybe he should stand outside to air it out, or kindly turn away and let me enjoy my stick of gum.  This situation also reminded me of twilight and how shitty it is.  Watching twilight is like stabbing your eyes and eyes repeatatly with a blunt object. Thought I agree that all the actors in the film are very attractive but the acting is fucking bullshit. If I wanted to watch a fucken love story about a vampire I would rather watch virgin vampire vixens and find better acting when the Shedevil rocks a killer orgasm, Fuck you Twilight…..  http://www.twilightsucks.com/

swirls of color you can always hold

a hard body, that just makes me sigh

but as sweet as you are, you are cold.

taste my lips, they eventually turn blue

my brain shakes, with the sudden pain

in this season some say im a fool

no matter what Ill be all over you again

Your coldness is nothing that it seems

but your my only love, Ice Cream.